Experienced in IMU's

All my minor test had finally settled down
But i am too tense to continue in my studies
its raya but i decided to chase back what i left
i miss my family and my room in hometown but i cant help it
thats why i try to find something to distress myself
and i ended up in IMU gang's potluck....XD

Its a fact that i am a little shy because i am the only outsider
and suddenly maybelle told me potluck cancelled and just dinner
actually i do feel a little happy since there wont be too much ppl
at first i heard is just 5-6 person and all of a sudden become 11
XD....omg~ luckily chris and yikai is there but kee loon missing~
but once i met maybelle's housemate(rachel & jennifer)i was relieved
they are super duper friendly~~and i love the environment there
they admit they are a bit '38' but i dont think so...
it's just cool for me because they are just A-Ok...=)
there is more friends that i met is great too~~
dexter and teo which i know is intelligent and kind~~
they even drove me for dinner another day~~thx ya~~
gwei theng is a book and bear lover and u-wen is funny too
christine is a princess i heard but its ok because she is lovely
overall~~y'all are the best strangers i met....XD really like y'all

they had gave me lots of experience such as cooking in the hall
using a heater to do things which i need a 'wok'
their kitchen had less equipment but more manpower...XD its fun!!
they had changed my point of view which girl is poorer in cooking
we had dinner on floor which newspaper carpeted the floor
all the utensils like spoon,fork and plates are from Chris's house
a total overall it is fun and exciting!~!thx guyz and gurlz~~XD
and i get to know that its christine birthday that day Happy birthday!!
dexter's was on yesterday and i wished him too~~

All this fun i can have thx to chris who spare me a space to lie
maybelle's invitation and yi kai's companion and teaching...
i can't made it without you guys...really thx you ya~~
love y'all~~!!~~

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Sadden...

When i was chewing my notes with my dinner...my parents called
i thought they wanna brag my studies again but not this time
they gave me a news that silenced me for quite a moment
grandma had just passed away...

even this moment...i dunno what i wanted to do or say
the only thing i can think about that she is gone forever...
i never can see her blissful smile that bring peace to my heart
i never can hold her hands and rub against hers
i never can take her to restaurants to have dinner with her
i never can chat with her although we suffer from some age gap
i never can caress her wrinkled face and give her a goodbye kiss
I never can hear she scolds me because i am naughty
thats too many to speak off but these are my memories
the most frustrated things i felt now is that because of my study
I CANT EVEN SEE HER LAST SMILE IN LIFE!!!
i hate myself for being so powerless and therefore i am speechless
today i will have test and quiz but i don't even can concentrate
i know she wouldn't want me become like that but i just CANT HELP IT
I hate myself that i cannot spend more time with her
because i had to move on in my studies and career with some distance

I din't come out with tears when i receive the news but when i typed this
my tears just kept circulating my eyeballs...i am blurred but still
i don't wanna let my tears out...i wanna tell her that i am strong~
i wanted to tell her that i wont cry because i don't want her worries
my heart is crumbling and my mind is falling apart but i know that
she is strong as a woman who brought up 10 kids with her own determination
i don't wanna fail her expectation on me that i will be as strong as she is

she is a sincere believer of Buddhism and i hope that she is relieved
when Buddha had came upon her to summon her to the World of Joyfulness
i thank god that gave my grandma a painless and blissful death
she was 90+ so we expect that moment to come but still it hurts when occur
she is a fierce Buddhist who would knock her head on the floor over 100 hit
just to blessed us with her chantings in front of the statue...
she is the greatest grandma that i had ever known...i loved her
Thanks for your kindness which i am being flooded with
Thanks for giving me a knowledge of love that i inherited from you
Thanks for passing down ur blissful smile to me...i will do great with it
and i will smile at you to assure that you lived continuously in my heart
If u can...pls visit me in my dreams to tell me u are happy now
I hope she is being great in another world with my grandpa
or even another live~~
That's my last wish for her.....Amitabah~~

Drastic days and nights

My life had certainly 100% turnover d~~lol why huh??
i sleep in the morning at 6-7 and awake for classes at 8
den after all those classes i go home taking for a nap
until 8 something at night only wake up for my lunch-ner
well i did great savings in these days coz 1 day maybe just 1 meal
what the hack make me do all these silly stuffs??? EXaM!~!

damn~
exams keep piling over and i never even have time to celebrate my dad's bday
oh man....my pops understand my situation but i still feel bad abt it
why ur course are having full test huh??most subjects had 3 test in a term
that means hell!!!its kinda hard to keep up to this
i am tired mentally and physically so i choose to play some MMORPG games
finally i have some time to relax but...i had addicted to it d
omgosh~~gonna need strength to pull this out

i am happy that there is someone there trying to revitalize me in relationship
and she is someone i hurt before....i felt bad for her truly
i don't want to repeat the same mistakes again as my past relationships
so i am sorry that i have to delay a bit since my life now is congested
i know u had some major exams coming so i rather u concentrate on those
i am tired now no matter what i do...its exam tomorrow at 8 and now
i am still bragging in front of the computer because i don't wanna touch those
thats the paper i repeat again and i am lack of determination~~
wednesday will be another test of my determination again...wanna be better this time
i dont wanna disappoints anyone anymore....definitely hate that!!

Quoted a phrase from my foundation maths teacher,
"Life is simple,but never easy,Maths either" after i take this course
i only understands the weight to bare~~well just can keep on going for now
and i wanna get my PTPTN money to invest in something....wahahahahaha
thats all its time for me to dig in my hellish notes again...Ja'mata~

Apologizing to my bloggie

I'm sorry man...since the last blog i wrote, i chose to abandon u...

Penalty was won by me....fuck off

*poof*...did u ever appear in my life???
i dun see any trace or straps....
so i can define u r NEVER in my life
and u r NOBODY to me...so what should i do?
or i shud say....WHY THE HELL SHOULD I CARE?
since it's a take down...then screw it...take it
opps...another mistake a gain coz u never can
because u R NOTHING!!!
fuck off from my life now and ever
heartache??dun ever dream of it
u are a damn fool that fooled me which means
i am just another fucking idiot...why???
because i fall for an idiotic trap...n no more...
tell ya a fact....u fell on my trap too damnit.!.
drastically i have no hard feelings now...phew~
since u r nothing for me...u dun deserve any from me
even any emotional...this time is the last and never
NEVER i shall pity on u again....bye and no bye~~

WanT a RiD3!?!?!?

-Dun ask me why the title is that because i don't know
-i randomly think of something and make it interesting!
-how can i relate.....hmmmm ah har!! i know d
-Still remember the poem of "The road not taken"??
-it will be transformed into "The ride not taken"
-wakakaka it carries the same meaning..want me explain?
-sure why not?u see...in life there is a lots of turning points
-ride means a dicision on what u made
-try to imagine...you are a person loitering around
-without any purpose in life and just a living dead
-but fate always come to us at right time and right place
-IF ONLY u take the ride then your life started to change
-dun be surprise when it changes 360 degrees around
-because this is the meaning of life to me!!
-everyday can have excitement and changes is fun
-but we must bear the pain when bad changes approached
-to me...bad changes can be treated as a challenge
-and i damn like challenges coz it cherish up my lazy bump
-so far...i never get beaten before but sacrifices a lot
-i admit that i will face challenge by hook or by crook
-and use up my things to overcome it therefore...
-it makes me always wanted to win but now i realize...
-there is no highest or strongest in a group or field
-it only appears as higher and highest is terrible
-coz until then it will perishes your interest in life
-actually winning and loses is not important in life
-the most important in life is the matter of fact
-that i had learn a lot no matter the status of victory
-life would not have live if we don't think it does
-some of you maybe think i crap a lot but i thinks a lot

-just like when Aaron brought me to the church to hear
-i thanks him on letting me understand more in Christian
-i had a great interest in legends,miracle and religion
-because i do knows it possessed a great power in the world
-ever heard of religion war??the fight is most drastic ones
-it controls the mental weakness and mental power of groups
-i do believe the next king of Earth will appear
-but now conquer with war...is with religiousness strength
-i am nuts??nope is just that u haven look deep in religion
-i am originally a Buddhist since my family holds it
-i had deeply investigate in al-Quran and bible
-but seems that my language is weak which makes me a fool
- i just know that every religion brought people to goods
-and about those scary religiosity known as evil relic
-it has a system in sacrificing to redeem our sin
-and proves a lot of miracle to make sure we believes them
-others will just wrote some facts to make a believes optional
-thats all lo the guys back d make me cant concentrate d
-hope you all dun say me nuts or stupid la har...ja mata

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AnoTh3r N3w lIfe oOo

i wondering...if every time i had a major change in my life only i give this post...
there will be damn boring for my fans...as i know i every three month blog once
and i am terribly sorry to those who always view my blog and now lets begin!!

N3w chAnGeS In LiFe
-Stay wif girls and of coz my hing dais' edi
-shifted to KL to continue my studies
-found out UTAR in KL is never a decent place
-living in a penthouse which cost us tremendous of cash
-cook our own food ever weekend to improve our basic survivor skills
-swim and badminton become my only sports
-staying in a room which facing those construction
-'someone' or 'something' wake me up at 5 in morning
-Dota-ing and Cabal-ing almost every day
-entered degree courses with all brillant girls in my house
-get rides to school and thanks to our big sis,Anna
-struggling in lectures,tutorials and languages class

Now,i need to quote something from kai ma, "Stop acting good,It's disgusting"
- we checked through and fro for the one who 'they' accusing
-the conclusion is i am the biggest suspect
-i ask them straightly and their response never satisfied my curiousity
-i had a great skills of observation and the data i retrieve and interprete
-it shows i am the greatest suspect in between us
-today i asked li wen and kai ma again and i get the same answer
-"u ss la,who dare to shoot you like that leh"...i am a suspicious fellow
-and due to i dont have any good names so i still afraid that it is me
-since they are trying to cover their tings up i also cant interfere their thoughts
-we are same lecture,same tutorial even same group in assignment
-if anything is in the heart will never be good just like a thorn in heart
-must find a way to pull it out therefore i appoach them for answers...
-or else the consequences is unexpected and unimaginary big i guess
-since we will be in same course i really scare the atmosphere will derived
-a facthat i will just criticize a true friend ONLY because it improves a person
-but of cause all those jokes was not meant to be counted
-now may the Buddha bless me that all these rubbish is just my imagination
-for this time i really damn hope my instinct and observation is wrong
-and for acknowledgment to those who knew me,i am a randomer
-i must apologize for my annoyance since i not clear about your limitation
-if i really did annoyed u coz i not really meant to
-its a fact that i do what i did to y'all to my gf also and this pissed her off
-but this not the same since i like to see her pissed off like an angry kitten
P.S. i am single d lo now XD

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