Another F*ck up day.....

My relations with her had been maintained until now in a quite obvious but still in unstable stage because both of us keeping silence and let the feeling just continue to evade our heart... but just because in the few days before i had my very busy times and i did not care about her for just a moment, she suddenly said out that her mind is now complicated and wanted me to leave her and dun care abt her.....all the things come on a sudden, i still think that me and her are just past tense because of her betrayal, i did some terrible things that defame my own... she came back to me and said she was hurt and only me are her medicine that can healed her.... i cant push away her offer because of my stupidity and finally i get myself hurt.... who shud i blame??? my own of her???am i too good for her or she is just a good-for-nothing??? i have been totally distracted mentally and even physically thats make me writing this blog in a late night.

This is her already but shud i just flick her off my mind or what??i am confused....truly....